Almost a year of silence

And still, it's hard to find something to say that really means something. Or something that doesn't entail negativity, mourning, sadness or gloom. Not that I don't experience happiness, contentment or resign but that 2010 so far seems so stressful for everyone and everything. Like a moment of constant scarcity whether emotional or financial, the world gets hit and there's never ENOUGH TLC to care for the fallen.

I better go out there and help someone because it all starts with me. I am about to begin writing a novel and that will be the next post, CHAPTER ONE my own memoir. Stay tuned.

I Dare You To Live With a Smile

I have gotten so worried about the things that I don't have, or the lack of riches, even the unfairness of the economy. But worrying puts the present moment in a blur, underwater and I can't barely see what's in front. My thoughts are so consuming that I forget to smile when my dog looks deep into my eyes for love.

So today, I am grabbing happiness by the hand, putting on a smile and turning my back on "worrying". If everything tumbles, I'll tumble too --and tumbling is like dancing, you let go and move with the flow.


HOW STILL, HOW HAPPY!
by Emily Bronte
How still, how happy! Those are words
That once would scarce agree together;
I loved the plashing of the surge -
The changing heaven the breezy weather,

More than smooth seas and cloudless skies
And solemn, soothing, softened airs
That in the forest woke no sighs
And from the green spray shook no tears.

How still, how happy! now I feel
Where silence dwells is sweeter far
Than laughing mirth's most joyous swell
However pure its raptures are.

Come, sit down on this sunny stone:
'Tis wintry light o'er flowerless moors -
But sit - for we are all alone
And clear expand heaven's breathless shores.

I could think in the withered grass
Spring's budding wreaths we might discern;
The violet's eye might shyly flash
And young leaves shoot among the fern.

It is but thought - full many a night
The snow shall clothe those hills afar
And storms shall add a drearier blight
And winds shall wage a wilder war,

Before the lark may herald in
Fresh foliage twined with blossoms fair
And summer days again begin
Their glory - haloed crown to wear.

Yet my heart loves December's smile
As much as July's golden beam;
Then let us sit and watch the while
The blue ice curdling on the stream -

The Midas Touch?

After reading THINK & GROW RICH by Napoleon Hill, a little paper back that has come to my lap over and over for the last 15 years but I had ignored for its titled seemed tacky, I've become a true believer of the proposed formula to transmute Desire into Riches:

Desire + Faith + Autosuggestion + Specialized Knowledge + Imagination + Honoring the subconscious + Mindfulness + Sixth Sense = Miracles/Riches

Once you're clear about what you desire, if you add all these disciplines in the order proposed above, the world will conspire to make it real. Hocus, Pocus! The burning desire manifest...try it out for yourself.

History Repeats Itself

Iranians need Justice for their vote should be heard and that regime should be shaken up with fairness. See the latest video on the Protests.

This Too Shall Pass

These have been the most difficult months that I have endured. So I heard this song and although tears purged my sadness, I began to feel better soon after. Especially to know that I have a family that cares and loves for REAL. So anyone that ever feels heavy with struggle and disappointment, here is this song for them...enjoy!

DON'T GIVE UP
In this proud land we grew up strong
We were wanted all along
I was taught to fight, taught to win
I never thought I could fail

No fight left or so it seems
I am a man whose dreams have all deserted
Ive changed my face, Ive changed my name
But no one wants you when you lose

Don't give up
cos you have friends
Don't give up
You're not beaten yet
Don't give up
I know you can make it good

Though I saw it all around
Never thought I could be affected
Thought that wed be the last to go
It is so strange the way things turn

Drove the night toward my home
The place that I was born, on the lakeside
As daylight broke, I saw the earth
The trees had burned down to the ground

Don't give up
You still have us
Don't give up
We don't need much of anything
Dont give up
cause somewhere there's a place
Where we belong

Rest your head
You worry too much
Its going to be alright
When times get rough
You can fall back on us
Don't give up
Please don't give up

got to walk out of here
I cant take anymore
Going to stand on that bridge
Keep my eyes down below
Whatever may come
And whatever may go
That rivers flowing
That rivers flowing

Moved on to another town
Tried hard to settle down
For every job, so many men
So many men no-one needs

Don't give up
cause you have friends
Don't give up
You're not the only one
Don't give up
No reason to be ashamed
Don't give up
You still have us
Don't give up now
Were proud of who you are
Don't give up
You know its never been easy
Don't give up
cause I believe there's the a place
There's a place where we belong

Have You Ever Been Had?

Like used as a rag for someone's clinical trials at love? Have you ever loved a cold person who have might as well glued the joker's smile on his face to feel happy. Really, have you ever been had?

If you have ever been had, stand proud with your chin up, it only happens to the tall and dignified ones for they are the pillars of truth in humanity.

Being Alive in Planet Earth

Considering the vast amount of galaxies out there, I am sure there's life outside Planet Earth. But what happens when I begin to wonder, especially with every birthday, what does living on earth really mean?

Here are some thoughts that emerged about why I am here:
-To find "Joy" in living --in everything that surrounds us, even when we have to share with those less fortunate ones (sounds religious but I think it's true)
-To become life affirming no matter how bad things are --accepting the challenges as positive experiences (I used to hate this one!)
-To eat chocolate cake and ice cold milk when things look gloomy (I love this one!)
-To be patient when nothing works your way --even if you've been unemployed for more than a year (this one makes me anxious!)
-To learn to learn with the kind of elegance that accepts defeats and mistakes (now that's humbling!)

-To love yourself the way you love your favorite pet



-To believe not to believe and have faith in miracles --FAITH in the impossible
-To tame your ego and keep it "right-sized" --it's never about me but about being present and feeling the presence within me
-To accept that Pizza and Cookies are bad for your health but can bring so much joy that you are willing to forfeit healthiness
-To give up on seeing duality in the definition of things

-To find meaningful relationships with your lovers


-To forgive everyone since we are all so fallible anyway
-To learn things that we already know but have forgotten --because things just are
-To be honest so that your word has strength and your reputation is trustworthy
-To stop shopping at Neiman Marcus when you are depressed and the economy is the red
-To forget yourself so that you can find your true self --That's very Eastern but I hate to admit it, it happens all the time to me

-To wrestle with guilt JUST like Jacob did with an Angel


-To go to the movies and relive life while watching a film projected on a gigantic flat screen inside a dark room (with other people whom you never met) while eating pop corn and M&Ms
-To love Apple computers for being so efficient and to forgive them for being so expensive
-To admire all your brothers and sisters because they are living life too --no one really taught us how to be joyful and positive 24/7

-To buy all the shoes in the world, even the most beautiful crocodiles loafers but know deep inside that you would rather wear flip flaps


-To be grateful that you get up every morning and have someone to call and wish them a good one
-To read beautiful books made up by an incredible selection of words that ultimately affirm life
-And to be SO PRESENT, ALERT IN THE NOW, to the point that you forget the past, ignore the future and live everyday like it's your birthday
-To respect your elders even when they annoy you

-To know that your loved ones, dead or alive, will always be with you in some kind of form because you've shared AMAZING experiences on this wonderful blue planet earth...